hmm the last time i was on tumblr? no idea. but a lot has happened and its killing me. well not all of it. i’ve been getting some good quality family time in and even put up my long overdue christmas tree. it finally feels like christmas. i’ve had a christmas tree up every year since i was born and i was really disappointed we couldnt put up the tree this year. i dont know why people say that plastic trees suck. well ok, theres no fresh tree smell and natural color but it seriously saves the clean up mess. i wouldnt mind a real tree but i dont think all that really matters; its just the joy from putting it up and hanging up the lights and ornaments on it. it really gets me in the christmas spirit. i mean with burkharts projects and study groups i would come home at the earliest 12 to a dark empty house for days in a row and just knock out. i definitely didnt feel the holiday spirit then. but the christmas tree is just so colorful, bright, and simply beautiful i cant help but smile when i look at it. it doesnt matter that most of the presents under the tree arent mine since i already look at my window tint everyday, its the whole crazy mystical powers of the tree that makes me feel all warm inside. i wouldnt trade it for the world, well unless the world could give me that ridiculous warm fuzzy feeling. im thinking ill save the bad stuff for later, talkin about the christmas tree just made me hapy again, its not time to kill the mood.. on a side note, i think its time to get myself a theme.